Do not withhold good from those who deserve it, when it is in your power to act. Proverbs 3:27

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Pity Party

Just to build on my last post, I'm homesick.  Full blown, admittedly weak, tears-and-snot homesick.  I think everything finally just came crashing down on me, and poor Bryan woke up to a sniveling pile of wife in the middle of the night.

I feel like I'm not in the right place.

I'm not home for Ian, Chase, and Gavin.  I'm not allowed to be a parent to Danila.  I'm neither one place, nor the other, and it SUCKS.

...and I know...patience, and trust, and His plan, and blah blah blah.  Right now I just want to be sad and pissed and helpless.




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  1. AnonymousAugust 29, 2011 at 6:27 AM

    it's ok to feel what you are feeling. ~Terri

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  2. Mindi, Mom of 4August 29, 2011 at 11:44 AM

    It's allowed.. Just hang in there. Have a drink. We'll be thinking of you Thursday at dinner.. missing you terribly! I was just thinking today that I wanted to give you a call about food for Kaden, but couldn't. You'll be home soon, WITH Danila. I can feel it!! <3 you guys!

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  3. CateAugust 29, 2011 at 12:47 PM

    aww, I'm sorry. Of course it sucks sucks sucks for all of you. baby steps, you'll get through it. And you're TOTALLY entitled to wallow a bit. (I used to actually schedule some wallowing time. Like, give myself ten or fifteen minutes to just be down, without trying to feel better or look on the bright side or any of that.)

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  4. vicspedAugust 29, 2011 at 6:59 PM

    You deserve to let it all out...those are some heavy emotions going on. Hope you've gotten some relief these past few days. We're all pulling for you. This hardship too shall pass.

    You've already grown so much and been on such an incredible journey. I'd love some household management tips from that family of 27 you mentioned in another post!

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